Too many times lately I’ve been feeling like giving it all up, erasing everything to do with what I’ve started and just accept a mundane, nine to five life. The constant let downs, dissatisfaction and plain hard work that I put in to this site, this blog and my other adult interests just isn’t matched in reward or compensation. Sure I love, yes love, contributing my own brand of smut and filth to the vast array of adult content available but I’m finding it increasingly harder to survive on just the knowledge that I’m building something and the pride i have for my fledgling empire.

I’ve also started questioning whether in fact it is all worth it.

Is Pervlens or MBT really worth running my finances in to the ground month after month, and still be at a loss (financially) year on year. How long should I give it before I give up? Many that I know have already suggested it’s not working out, they’re not wrong… i have no proof to contrary.

But, if I remove my only hobby from my life and for that matter the only thing that has ever really made me happy, will my life be any better or will I simply be wealthier. What will i pump my time in to? Will I ever work with such amazing people as I once have when working with the models I have been privileged enough to photograph and video over these short two years.

Ultimately, I have some thinking to do…

I felt like sharing my current frame of mind with my readers and people that value and like my work so far. I’m not looking for anyone to make up my mind for me but please feel free to share your experiences with me. It may just help.